BABIES ARE GROWING!

Went for another ultrasound this morning and boy was I nervous, but I was willing to accept whatever I saw. Thankfully my mom got to go with me as Chris had a conference call he had to be a part of. We tried to do an external ultrasound, but it was hard to see still, but immediately we could see that the babies had grown and I do mean babies! Immediately I had tears running down my face as my miracles were progressing, both of them. Once we started the internal ultrasound, my mom saw the flicker in Baby A which is the baby we are worried about. Then you could see that things were starting to really progress with that baby and he/she was growing! Here is a picture...it doesn't do the baby justice, but you can see the growth.

It is faint, but you can start to see the development of the baby. :) It was hard to get a heartbeat reading, but it was around 100 which is good. Then we really got to look at the other baby and that was amazing. Baby B has body parts! We could actually see his/her feet. It was beautiful and more than emotional. Baby B's heartbeat was 164. Here is a picture of Baby B.

We are so in love with our babies! I can't wait to see how they continue to grow! I really and truly can say that I believe in February we are going to be parents. Thank you God for watching over our two miracles as I know you and all of our friends and families prayers are responsible for this growth! Grow babies grow!

8 Weeks!

We have hit another milestone... 8 weeks along in my pregnancy and only 4 more to go to be done with my first trimester! I really and truly think that once I hit that magic number I will really be able to relax and enjoy my pregnancy, I hope. Then on top of that I only have one more Progesterone in Oil injection tomorrow night! I am so happy about that, that I could scream! My doctor is still keeping me on the oral progesterone until I am done with the first trimester, but no more injections. I have been getting poked now for almost 3 months up to three times a day and the idea of being done being bruised, is incredible! I am hoping that my butt will stop being sore soon.
So, how are we holding up, we are doing better than people would think. We are not giving up on our little miracle yet. We know what the doctors have told us, but I am just hoping that my little peanut is just behind and hasn't stopped growing. On the flip side, we do have one baby that is growing the correct way and looks great. We just need to keep being positive and let God handle this. I am not going to be ok if God takes another one of our babies though. Still holding hope and praying. Not sure when I have another ultrasound to see the babies again and make sure things are ok. I have another appointment on the 3rd and I am thinking that day we will find out. I am just asking for strength to get to that point. Grow babies grow and asking for patience!

Miracle Babies...Still Praying

Our two babies at 7 weeks.  We aren't giving up hope on the second one.  Just praying for a miracle that this baby catches up. 

Heartbroken

Today has been one of those days that I would like to forget about.  Today was my first appointment with my OB as I have been released from my RE in St. Louis pretty much.  I was already nervous to begin with about my appointment, but I had no idea what was going to happen today.  The first part was meeting with the doctor and going over my past, what is happening right now, and what will happen.  I wasn't that impressed with my doctor and was really sent over the edge, when she got a page that she needed to deliver a baby immediately.  She asked if I could come back in an hour to finish up.  Luckily my mom was with me or I would have been like no as I wasn't happy with this lady as she wasn't friendly and had no bedside manner.  We did leave and ran some errands before coming back.  I couldn't believe the difference in my doctor.  She was nice, had a personality, joking with me, and was nice.  It was shocking.  She did a few tests and said my uterus was measuring at 9 weeks.  I then told her how all of this makes me so nervous with what I have been though and how I just worry about my twins.  She said lets go down the hall and I will try to do an external ultrasound.  Boy were we shocked to see what we did...we went from having twins to triplets as she saw three gestational sacs.  I was shaking and crying so hard and my mom's face was just about the same.  We were then sent over to the hospital for an internal ultrasound immediately to confirm what she saw.  I am not sure how we even got there to be honest as I was still in shock.  I called Chris and he didn't even believe me when I told him.  Could we really be having triplets?  I got there and went back for the ultrasound and immediately we just saw two sacs, THANK GOD!  Then the ultrasound tech started looking at the sacs at the babies.  One of the babies is measuring at 6 weeks and 5 days which is just a few days behind with a heartbeat of 136.  The other baby was not as visible and only measuring at 5 weeks and 6 days and couldn't find the heartbeat.  I was immediately heartbroken and starting to lose it.  We can see the gestational pole and the yolk sac, but that was about it.  Here we went from thinking we were having triplets to maybe just one baby.  I know that this baby might just be a bit behind, but I am already thinking the worse.  I am asking for prayers and positive thoughts for our little ones as I don't want to give up just yet.  I am sure I will be having yet another ultrasound in the next few weeks.  Please God let both of my babies survive...I am not sure we can endure this heartache at all.  (Sigh)

Picture of Our Twins

Here is a picture of our twins at 6 weeks 3 days.  I love this picture and I love our twins!

TWINS!!!!

I still can't believe what I saw today! We had my first ultrasound and what do you know we are having TWINS!!! I am so in shock. Here I was thinking one and Chris was like no there are two and then to see those two perfect sacks!! Chris's face was priceless and one I won't forget ever as he wanted two, but he even looked shocked. I on the other hand, started shaking and crying. Dr. Ahlering then zoomed the camera in on each sack and we saw the baby and the flicker of the heartbeat. It was beautiful to say he least. He spent so much time with us and really looked at each baby and was so pleased with how they looked. I am sure he could tell by my reaction and shaking body that I wasn't taking all of this in. I told him that I am really pregnant aren't I and he just laughed. I love my doctor!! Now we jut have to find a doctor at home as this was my last appt unless I can't find someone that can see me in 10 days for another ultrasound. Wow...still in shock and I will write more tomorrow as we are at the hotel boy in shell shock. God is amazing and I totally thank him for all of his!!

6 WEEKS!

Today makes me officially 6 weeks pregnant!  Unreal!  I know this probably doesn't seem much when you think that I have 34 weeks to go, but this is huge to me!  I still don't think it has hit me yet and it probably will on Wednesday at the ultrasound when I see with my own eyes that things are really progressing.  I am so nervous, but confident, I think.  I have been that way through this whole process and the reality that it might have actually worked doesn't seem possible.  I know that Chris is probably feeling the same way even though he doesn't say anything.  My mom on the otherhand is very skeptical about the whole thing as she doesn't want to get her hopes up or mine either.  I can't believe that in two days I have an ultrasound to see a baby or babies~  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!  I honestly feel like screaming to say the least.  I do have to say if there is something wrong, I don't think I can ever do this again.  I know I can't be negative and have to keep looking at my glass as more than half full.  :)  Everything has to be fine as I have all kinds of symptoms that are normal pregnancy symptoms that is for sure.  I even got a new symptom the other day that scared me as I thought I was losing my lining, but once I pulled out my book to see it was normal and had a name, I was more then relieved.  The best part about everything right now is I have now hit the single digits on the number of Progesterone in Oil injections!  WOO HOO!  I hate these injections and I am ready to be done with all of the progesterone and my sore butt that is for sure.  I am going to end this with telling you that tonight as Chris and I lay in bed like every night with my hand on my belly just like every night, we will be praying to God for our little Gertie and Gomez  We put this in his hands a long time ago and truly believe he lead us on the path to this doctor.  Please pray for our little miracle that everything is ok and we are going to get to see our baby(s) again.  I can't wait!  GIDDY!