Sunday, September 19, 2010

Acupuncture and Dreams

I have had a lot on my mind lately and have been meaning to write, but with the start of school, I have been busy.  However, the baby making concept has still been on my mind.  I have been doing acupuncture once a week and I don't like it at all, but I can tell a difference from it.  The lady that I see has made me a real believer in what I am doing.  Each time I go and she tells me about my pulse, I think I am on the right path.  I did have a cycle already as I was going through the treatments and I was really late which had my hopes up, but when I did start I could tell something was different in my cycle in a good way.  Now I should be ovulating again any day and we will see what happens this month.  I am kind of taking a more laid back approach this month, but I just know in my gut that this isn't our month.  I am really thinking that the next cycle everything will be great.  When I first started treatment she said that it would be a good 2 to 3 months.  I have total trust in her with all of this.  I really  hope my doctor realizes how much I think of her and how I have all of my eggs in her basket. 

On the flip side we have maybe come into a lot of money which could open up a lot of doors for Chris and I on becoming parents.  He doesn't want to talk about it, but it is definitely on my mind that we could use this money for IVF or adoption.  I really feel like this is a sign from Chris's Nana and she is rooting us on from heaven just like she did when she was alive.  I just really need to figure out what to do, but then on the flip side maybe we will have a miracle and be able to put that money for something for Chris and I.  I really feel that he and I need a getaway just the two of us.  We need it.  Any how acupuncture is tomorrow and we will see what happens from that.  More to come soon!

Last bit of info that is on my mind.  November 15th is creeping up and the thought that would be our babies first birthday really makes me ill.  I don't think I will ever get over the loss and that date.  Sigh