Monday, February 6, 2012

FULL TERM!

We are FULL TERM today!  I can't believe that I am 37 weeks today and that close to finally being a MOM!  Today when I woke up, I woke up with the biggest smile and tears in my eyes.  My dream that has felt just within reach for so long, is about to really and truly come true.  We are ready to meet Miss Gabbie and complete our family.  Her nursery is ready for her to come too.  Now the rest of my house is a different story, but we are slowly making a dent in the mess and projects.  Chris is a machine!

The other day I sat down and read my blog all the way back to 2009 when I first started writing about my infertility and I just sobbed.  The one thing that I have learned through this journey is that I am a far stronger woman than I ever thought I was.  I still can't believe some of the things that I have done and been through on this journey.  Who would have thought this girl could have multiple injections through out the day and even given myself a few of them!  Seriously...I did that.  Who would have thought I could have emergency surgery, egg retrieval, endless amount of blood draws, 100's of injections, etc.  WOW!  I am really proud of myself and of Chris as this road has been more than rocky, but we faced it together and made our relationship even stronger!  I am lucky to be married to my best friend!

This pregnancy has definitely not been easy and right now is no exception as I am still on bedrest and going to the doctor more than ever.  My doctor has been amazing through all of this.  We have been checking off little milestones along this journey and today is a huge milestone that we get to check off.  When I think back to the beginning when we were having twins, to triplets, to one, to twins again, to losing one of the twins, it has been nuts to say the least.  I have cried probably more than smile that is for sure.  Like I said reality hadn't hit back then and I was still waiting for someone to take it all away.  Even though we are 37 weeks, it still isn't real to be honest with you.  My doctor said she can't wait to make it really real when she puts that baby in my arms.  I can't wait!

Our plan right now is this...  I am going to the doctor or hospital at least 6 times a week right now.  The doctor is really monitoring things and making sure that we don't miss a thing.  She is concerned that Miss Gabbie hasn't passed the BIOS Physical Profile test.  She has passed almost all of it except for the 30 seconds of practice breathing.  The first time we had it done, the doctor wasn't as worried as we were barely 34 weeks, but now that we are further along she should be passing this test.  I have to go for this test at least once a week if not more.  I am still having nonstress tests two times a week to check on her movement.  Miss Gabbie is still not moving as much as she should which is concerning.  As I am writing this, I am trying to see if I feel her move for her little kick test this morning.  I have a feeling that she is asleep.  She is definitely hard headed.  When we go for these nonstress tests, if she doesn't pass them, then we will be sent down for an ultrasound immediately which will get us admitted to the hospital yet again and plans will change.  I have another ultrasound tomorrow to measure Gabbie.  The doctor is concerned about her size right now as she doesn't think she is going to be able to just come and we are really looking at a c-section.  The doctor says my pelvis is the size of a child's which is just going to complicate matters.  I guess we will see what this ultrasound shows tomorrow for a final plan.  The plan right now is that I am going to deliver at 39 weeks either by induction or c-section.  We are going to do it on a day that my doctor is on call as I really want her to deliver her as she deserves too with all of the love and support she has given us.  On top of all of these weekly tests, I still have my weekly appointment with Dr. Leverett to check on things.  She told me she isn't even going to check for dilation and effacement as I have been having contractions since November.  I have to say I was more than thrilled to hear this as I HATE being checked.  :)

Alright so ending this post with life is amazing, God is amazing, and we are so thankful for all of the love and support that we have received on our very long journey!  We couldn't have done this without you!!!