Bumps

There are definitely times during the month that are bumpier than others with my infertility journey, but the bumps lately have been a lot on my mind.  The other night I head about someone that was pregnant that really got to me.  This person doesn't take care of the child that she has, my nephew, and the state taxpayers are doing what she doesn't.  When I heard that from my brother in law, I was infuriated to say the least.  The only good thing is that the father isn't my brother in law this time, but still.  It just makes me angry to think that God blessed her with another child and hear I am still with a broken heart and without a baby.  Sigh... someday this will be easier, I just know it. 

Then add Mother's Day on top of that and I am a walking emotional mess.  I hate that my unhappiness with this holiday skews my opinion of it considering I have the most amazing mom in the world.  She is by my side through everything I go through and is truly my best friend.  I hope that she knows that, but I am pretty sure she does.  I would love for nothing more than to give her grandchild.