One of Those Days

Do you have one of those days when you just want to sit and be by yourself with your thoughts?  That would be today for me.  Yesterday I had more blood work done (this will determine if I have PCOS or not.  The doctor still doesn't think so, but we want to make sure.) and then had an amazing rest of the day with my mom, sister in law, and my nieces.  It was great.  During the day I had told my sister that I hadn't got a bill yet for anything and then I come home to the bill from Aetna.  My mouth hit the floor.  The bill alone for all of my bloodwork just made me want to cry.  Then there was the bill from my doctor.  Seriously...how are we going to afford this.  All of the rest of our money is due May 2nd and it is a LOT!

Today I have been sitting trying to add up numbers and see how our cutting back has gone and it has gone better than I would like, but we will still be charging a HUGE number which I hate when I am debt free except for my house.  I have friends that just keep saying it is money and get over it, but this isn't a for sure deal as most of you know and it is just a lot to think about when we would be finishing our basement, buying a new car, etc in which those are a for sure deal.  I told you I am having one of those days.  Today I was supposed to spend the day with friends as I am on spring break, but just didn't feel like it.  Tomorrow I am supposed to go to the zoo with all of them and their kids and I am hoping I feel more like myself.  This whole process is just hitting me. 

I do have to add a funny though.  Yesterday while watching my nieces, the 5 year old said my mommy said you are going to have babies.  I told her I hope so and she said how many are you going to have, I said I don't know and then she added I hope that you have a dozen.  I looked at her and laughed and said if I have a dozen, you can have one and name one.  When I told Chris last night he said if that happens he gets his Gomez.  :)  See I had to end this not so wonderful post on a happy note as I am trying to think positive.